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I wish I could go back to when my friends didn’t know what’s wrong with me. I wish I could go back to continue acting like everything’s alright. That I’m okay. And normal. But now I just can’t. They would immediately know I’m lying.
All I do is keep making them worry.
They keep repeating they…
^^^^THIS THIS THIS. that’s exactly how i feel
"There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you’re high it’s tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars….But, somewhere, this changes. The fast ideas are far too fast, and there are far too many; overwhelming confusion replaces clarity. Everything previously moving with the grain is now against–you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable….It will never end, for madness carves its own reality."
— Kay Redfield Jamison (on Bipolar Disorder)
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first time on tumblr in months
after my second manic episode it’s been a long journey to get back to a place where i feel i can express myself clearly. in one sense i’ve been too angry with myself to speak up. it’s a silly thing too. why be angry with yourself over a condition that you have no control over? bipolar disorder damn sure wasn’t my choice, but it is something i have to live with and come to terms with before i can move on with my life. I can’t be the only one who’s felt like there’s something they could have done to prevent the train wreck that is a mood disorder. the truth of the matter is, you cant, none of us can. i hope in the coming months i’ll be able to better articulate what i went through and how i’ve grown, maybe it’ll help someone else struggling just like me…
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one of my favorite Kerouac quotes.. i dont care if i’ve posted it before.
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The Trevor Project
I feel really good about myself right now. Why? Because I have raised over 200 dollars for The Trevor Project. Last year in my home town 5 teenagers committed suicide and left an impact on me and I decided I would donate as much money as I could to teen suicide prevention. I have over 200 dollars and everyday that number rises. I encourage you guys on tumblr to also donate money to this great cause.
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Every 19 seconds somebody tries to commit suicide. Every 48 minutes, someone succeeds.
Please call 1-800-SUICIDE if you or anyone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts.
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There’s a reason you chose Earth, exactly when you did, as exactly who you are, with those already in your life and those who soon will be: To be an example, to shine your light, and to give hope.
Yeah, you were needed…super bad.
— The Universe (via myriadcontemplations)
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